Lately I’ve been feeling the writing blues, which, at least for me, is a mindset in which I don’t want to do anything regarding my stories. The Amazon Breakthrough Novel Award is coming up on January 24th, which means ideally I’d like to have The Recruited fully edited by that point. I know my chances of winning anything are miniscule, and I’m really just looking to get through the pitch round, but I would feel really lackluster about the whole thing if I knew I hadn’t fully finished editing my manuscript and submitted it anyway. I’ve been trying to push myself to do a little bit every day, just so it gets done before I go back to school, but it also doesn’t help that I’m coming up on a section that needs desperately to be rewritten, and I just DON’T WANT TO.
Sigh. So yeah, that’s my issue there. To make matters worse, I’m also having issues with The Lost. I recently had to redraft a whole three chapters because the way I initially planned it just didn’t work. I’ve never had to do that before, and I’m not sure if that’s got me down or the fact that I suddenly don’t know how to get to the giant climax section is. I know what happens in the climax, at least in general terms. I know who lives and who dies, and I know how the book ends. It’s connecting these points that’s going to give me fits. Basically once I get past the scenes I have outlined, I don’t know where to go.
Not to mention I’m not feeling inspired for anything else. Usually if I’m not feeling the novels I go write a prompt off the never-ending 100 Prompts Challenge, but even though I know what the next few are, I’m just not interested in doing those either. I need to get my writing mojo back, and fast.
In other news, the boyfriend’s visit was great. We went into the city with my family, had lunch with , saw the latest Harry Potter film a few weeks after everyone else, etc. It was a really great time, and as always, I was sad to see him go. We’re taking my sister back to college this weekend, and I go back on Wednesday, so I’m struggling to get everything done before then. Of course, once I get back to school and classes plus new job start–HUZZAH–I’ll probably want nothing better than to write.
Just the way life works, I guess, but still, how frustrating!